hey guys...so im just gonna post some quotes i love....if you wanna see whats new with my life check out blue_eyed_wanna_b .... my newest xanga....o changed the layout...u guys like? lol check out the cute icon too!! hehe

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I missed you then, but f*ck you now
 I'm better than ever, happier than before
and it's all cuz I'm not dealin' wit your shit no more.

TO ALL MY FRiENDS WHO CUT:
WHEN YOU CUT YOURSELF ON YOUR SKIN,
THE SAME KNIFE IS SLICING ME IN THE SOUL.

what confuses me the most
is how you put on a show
you claimed you liked me
you claimed you loved me
but it never really showed
if you ever loved me
it's really hard to say
because with you it's hard to know
but i wish i could find a way
but i do give you this
this very true fact
all i have to say now is
WOW, what an act!

i feel soo [ betrayed ], lost at heart. i feel so stupid, for believing his every last word. he told me he [ loved ] me. he told me it was [ true. ] what else was i suppose to do? i ((believed his bullshit)), and this is what i get in return.
i had built up so many walls, from fear of getting [ hurt. ] but when he spoke those three little words, the walls came crashing down. once he [ stole ] my heart, there was nothing i could do, but hope he would take care of it, but somewhere in my heart i knew. he [ crushed ] my heart up into pieces. what everyone sayd was true.
i finally got the courage to let the walls come down. i trusted him with all of me not to break my heart. every time i give in and let the walls come down, someone always has to ruin it, by [ betraying ] my heart and soul.
it's gotten [ harder and harder ] to trust in guys, not to break my heart. it's hard to tell which ones are ((true,)) and which ones [ just want ass. ] they'll tell you that's not all they want, but deep down you know it is, but you just can't help but believe, because you have so much faith in them. i've trusted one too many guys and this is what i get: the feeling of [ betrayal ] within every single breath.

 Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something & wishing you hadn't? Or saying nothing & wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart.. if you don't, you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much.. for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid.. afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks & it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back & wonder what they would have done, or could have had. What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye? What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow & you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore) What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? What would you do if you never got the chance to say 'I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them'? People live, but people die.

hey cuties...so i changed the layout...haha we all know who im waiting for. ;) yea anyways...lol gotta call him tonight actually...hmmm...well nothing new going on...had gym today but we took a stupid test then went in the weightroom so i didnt get to talk with justin or shelby much....hmm...lessons tomorrow!!! thank god!!!!!! i am so excited....get to ride matt, a 4 year old tb....im so excited!!!!! lol then friday babysitting but also the holiday parade! hopefully i meet up with chris, justin, and shelby so yea...well thats all...o and scott if u read this i told u to update ur buddy info cause u say ur still 15 there but hey...dont listen to me as u put it im just a bitch....w/e this is so true for me and scott...to bad we arent even friends  ...so yea...lots of love cuties!!!

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hey cuties!!! whats up?? just sitting here in my nice warm basement typing this...no ones talking to me :( o well...lol nvm kelsey just aimed me lol so yea...another boring day...sometimes i hate breaks just because they r so boring and i dont get to see anyone really... but yea...ill see plenty of ppl sunday i hope so its all good...lol...as u can tell im still not fully awake yet and have like no sugar in me...we have like nothing to eat...lol i wanna order a pizza!! lol...so monday im babysitting makayla all day...that should be fun...not..lol then Dec. 2 is our holiday parade and im watching her all night and into the next morning...fuin fun....o well ill get paid nicely...so yea...it will be my x-mas gift money lol...so yea...well im going now...loves to all!

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lol stole this from kelsey:

How to Decifer "Girl Speach"..
-Fine: This is the word we use at the end of any argument that we feel we are right about but need to shut you up. Never use fine to describe how a woman looks. This will cause you to have one of those arguements.
-Five Minutes: This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your hockey game is going to last before you do whatever it is she wants you to do.
-Nothing: This means something. Be on your toes. Nothing is usually used to describe the feeling she has of wanting to rip your face off. Nothing usually signifies an arguement that will last five minutes and end with the word fine.
-Go Ahead (With Raised Eyebrows): Translation: "I dare you." This will result in her getting mad over nothing and will end with the word fine.
-Go Ahead (Normal Eyebrows): Translation: "I give up" or "Do what you want, I don't care." You will get a go ahead with raised eyebrows in just a few minutes, followed by nothing and fine. She will talk to you in about five minutes when she cools off.
-Loud Sigh: This is not actually a word, but it is still a verbal statement misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are a moron at the moment and wonders why she's wasting her time arguing with you over nothing.
-Soft Sigh: (Again, not a word, but you know...) She is content. Your best bet is not to talk or move or breathe and she will stay content.
-Oh: This word followed by any statement is trouble. Example: "Oh, well, I just talked to him about what you were doing last night." If she says oh before any statement, run -- do not walk -- to the nearest exit.
-That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can say to a man. That's okay means that she wants to think long and hard before repaying you for whatever it is that you did wrong. You do not want to be there when that happens.
-Please Do: This is not a statement, it's an offer. She's giving you the opportunity to come up with whatever lame-ass excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is you've done. You have a fair change to tell the truth here. Be very careful and you shouldn't get a "that's okay."
-Thanks: She's thanking you. Don't feel faint, just say, "You're welcome."
-Thanks a Lot: This longer phrase is not to be confused with thanks. She'll say "thanks a lot" when she's actually seriously peeved at you. It signifies that you have hurt her in some callous way and will generally be followed by the loud sigh. Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the loud sigh, or she will say, "Nothing," and raise her eyebrows.

just a quick update wishing everyone a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!! on a sadder note I just found out alst night from a student council member that the dance on Dec. 17 is for upperclassmen...in other words no freshmen/sophmores...which really sucks! so I say we get a ton of freshmen/sophmores and go to Rick's Place that night...lol its thisone club my friend went to for her dance...so yea...haha o well...we still should do something...lol...well guess im going...lots of love!

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EDIT:  K well Im continuing my update lol...so my grandma wasnt to bad today...it just sucked being the only older kid there today....but yea...so Sundays bowling and I honestly cant wait. So Im copying off of Kelly and saying what I am thankful for right now.

   I am very thankful for my family and friends. Especially thankful that my dad is doing better after his eye surgerys and cold. I am also thankful for my friends who have always been here for me and supported me all the way. I am thankful for the ppl I know and can tell anything. I am thankful for the new friends I have made so far this year and the oppertunities that I have in this next year.

Ok, I'm done...lol...so yea...omg!! next year my dad wants to get me tickets to a bucs game in tampa bay next year!!!!! lol its so awesome..and next spring break im prolly going down there and next summer is the 3 week trip to germany!!! omg next years gonna be awesome. haha yea...so im going now...lol...

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There is nothing better than starting the day off with a brokenheart that wont heal, a backstabbing friend that could care less about you, and all you can do is smile and act like nothing is wrong

we can all see that he loves her, he just doesn't know it yet

MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR TURNED OUT TO BE A LOSER IN ALUMINUM FOIL

hey darlings!! lol so today was a good day :) lol ive had a constantly sugar rush like all day...and everyone loved my oatmeal scotchies i made...esp gore...so yea... cant wait till sunday!! bowling!!! haha heres a list of all those coming: justin, chris, traci, kelsey, matt, abby, kelly, shelby, scott...thats it so far...some ppl arent sure if they can come but yea...lemme no if u arent on the list and u wanna...lol...so yea...thats it...have to babysit monday...going to my grandparents house tomorrow for thanksgivning...fun fun....haha its gonna be crazy over there with all the ppl but yea.... hopefully justin calls me on the cell so i can talk to him...but yea...well guess im going since no ones on or talking to me...leave comments!!

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